I was just looking through some drafts (post I have not posted) and I came across this one. I guess I was in a rough spot a few days ago and needed to vent :)
it's time......oh it's way pass time, but I'm going to throw in the towel. It's worn, faded, ripped, full of holes and barely able to absorb the tears rolling down my face.
The towel that I have held so tight in the grips of my hands has to be put to rest. I've hidden behind it and I've wiped blood, sweat and tears with it.
What am I talking about? I'm talking about letting go and letting GOD. No matter how far I've come there are still many many of miles to go. One step forward and three steps back. I'm tired and I've grown weary. What a blessing for God to bring me to my knees so I can see exactly where I am. I'm cold........my heart is hard...........but I'm so full of love. How can this be? Past life experiences. The way I was raised. Not horribly, but now the way I would want my children to be raised. But still, after all of this, I do it over again.
Sometimes I wonder what God is doing when he tells me that "I'm exactly where I need to be." WHAT?
Hang in there, Dodi! God had done amazing things with you, and he is not finished yet!
ReplyDeleteThank you Sarah, I'm glad I started venting on my blog because I forgot about that post. But when God showed me what He was doing it was all made clear to me! Sometimes it takes years and in this case it was only weeks! Jesus, Mary and Joseph, save souls.
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