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To Live as Francis Lived, Reflection 1,

Question 3 - What attitude in you has been the greatest hindrance to deepening your love of God?......(sigh).......................(dragging my feet)............Oh alright...........I'll come out with it!!!

~NUMBER 1......Sometimes I think I am so perfect that when my beloved husband ask me a question..............it bothers me that I have to answer!
~NUMBER 2........when my children ask for a drink of some kind, it bothers me that I have to put aside what I WANT to do and tend to them!
~NUMBER 3.......ME....ME.....ME.........ME!!! Need I say more?

Who am I? Who is it that I think I am? I know this all sounds harsh.....but if you think about it for a while........we all do this at times. Sometimes more often than others. We are all human. We are not good people..........only God is good! He calls us to be Holy as He is holy, but He also knows that in this world, with this flesh, it will not be complete until we are face to face with Him. Until there is no stain of sin. We ARE BLESSED! He knew that I would go around stomping my feet........feeling all superior! But he still gave Himself up for me! unappreciative me! selfish me! Why? Because of something that we are incapable of having unless we deny ourselves and that my friend is ........UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.........only HE can fully love a miserable sinner like me!

Praise God that I do not sit and sulk in my misery.........I know that I am imperfect. I know that my journey will be a tough one. We are called to be servants. "He came to serve, not be served"............So, I will serve my family and anyone else he ask me to serve and I will fight my imperfections till the very end. Why, because I find my strength in HIM. He loves me so much that He awaits us in the Tabernacle every minute of the day to visit with Him. Just to talk. Just to see how things are going. Just to pray with me. Just to take away all of my burdens if I choose to leave them with Him. You see, He gives me a choice. That's Love. He gave Himself up for me on the Cross so that by His BODY and BLOOD one day I may be spared. He gave me a beautiful role model to follow..............His Mother and our Mother Mary. Why Mary, because he knows that as humans we can better understand the love of a mother than a love who is WILLING to DIE on a CROSS for US! My Mother Mary will wrap me in her Mantle and guide me to her beloved Son Jesus, not for her glory but for the Glory of the Father with whom all things (like us) were made. Not my will Father, but YOURS be done!! Amen! I love you Jesus!